Despite the fact that I had an excellent day at school, today is one of those days I want to lay down in the middle of the street with my eyes closed and a post-it note on my forehead that says, "I quit life."

Go ahead and add insult to injury.

I should have known.

July 4th

Go to Wikipedia.com and do a search on your birthday (minus the year). Select three events, births, deaths, and holidays or observances. Post in your journal, and revel in your shared glory.

Events
1776 - American Revolutionary War: The Continental Congress approves a Declaration of Independence from the Kingdom of Great Britain.
1862 - Lewis Carroll tells Alice Liddell a story that would grow into Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and its sequels.
2004 - The cornerstone of the Freedom Tower is laid on the site of the World Trade Center in New York City.

Births
1881 - Ulysses S. Grant III, American soldier and planner (d. 1968)
1900 - Louis Armstrong, American musician (d. 1971)
1927 - Neil Simon, American playwright

Deaths
1826 - John Adams 2nd President of the United States (b. 1735)
1826 - Thomas Jefferson, 3rd President of the United States (b. 1743)
1831 - James Monroe, 5th President of the United States (b. 1758)

Holidays and observances
United States and Denmark - Independence Day (1776)
Filipino-American Friendship Day
In astronomy, the approximate date of Earth's aphelion.


Nabbed from sugrsingr.

Crushed.

It's sort of ridiculous how it has to feel like a job to keep 'friends' here on livejournal. If you don't update or comment, you are 'punished' and removed. Meh, seriously people? I add friends because I like reading their journals and I may feel compelled to comment and it's always cool to have someone comment to one of my entries. This journal doesn't exist, however, for the purpose of friending or for anyone else's benefit. It's about me and you know, if I'm too busy with my life to update or comment- that's probably a good thing. I never took this thing incredibly serious- perhaps it was a mistake to friend anyone who does.

Thanks to those lovelies who've stuck by me- I truly enjoy reading your entries, even if I don't comment. :)

( How long has it been? )

Even though my official quit day was one week prior to last Saturday, I was on the patch a few days and smoked when I went out on Saturday night. So to be honest with myself, I haven't had any nicotine since Sunday at 3am.

The first few days were surprisingly easy. Today, with all of this crazy stuff that's been going on- I'm ready to crack. Everyone better be so damn proud of me.

Thank you, State of Illinois for raising the price a dollar. Right about now, with this level of anxiety, that's about all that's stopping me.

Ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Yeah...

Yes!!!!!

I got an audition for the Steppenwolf School! Only a limited number of applicants (about 100) got audition spots! They're even auditioning in Houston and New York and I got a spot. WHOO!

Who would have thought that what was really wrong... was you? I was too caught up in keeping you to realize that it was you who was my biggest obstacle- you who held me back. And now that it's all said and done, I couldn't agree more that what happened was absolutely necessary- one of those big steps that finally take me in the right direction.

I think it's about time I start that new life I'm always thinking about.

Was awakened by a very enthusiastic UPS employee pressing my doorbell relentlessly until I answered the door in my pajamas and he greeted me heartily.

Cancelled the meeting with my acting teacher that I'd made in order to prepare for monday's performance.

Waited on the telephone for an obscene amount of time for both AAA and the mechanic.

Waited outside in the cold for an even more obscene amount of time (try, three hours) for the towing company. Not only were they over an hour late, they'd been given the wrong address (one at least 5 miles away from me). Once they arrived and could not start my car, I was told I'd have to make an entirely new appointment for towing, even though AAA had indicated that it'd be included.

By the grace of God, my car started. So I drove it to the mechanic with no gas in the tank. Once I turned it off there, it would not start up again. The mechanic had suggested I go get gas, but I'd left my wallet at home (think the car would be towed and I wouldn't have to leave it in the parking lot running with the keys in the ignition).

Having left my car with the mechanic, I walked over a mile home through the dodgier parts of town. In addition to the bitter cold, it began to snow. When I was halfway home, I realized that I'd left a pot of macaroni boiling on the stove. I ran the rest of the way.

Reaching the four floor of my building, I could smell the scent of burning through the door. Unfortunately, the light in our small hallway is burnt out, so it took me five minutes to find the keyhole and ultimately, open the door.

Upon entrance, I was greeted by a smoke-filled apartment and the piercing sound of a disconnected smoke alarm (which could not be located). My cats were running around with their ears straight back and their eyes wide. The pot, as it was, melted into itself and created quite the interesting work of art. It's now smoldering on the back porch.

This wonderful day wasn't the first of such experiences, of course. I've been dealing with my broken down car and two broken computers for the past two weeks now. I'm in over my head in this crazy grad-level course at school, one of my friends is angry with me, the other busy with her sister who's engaged to an alcoholic, and I've been fighting off a horrible cold.

But, hey, I'm not complaining. Just throwing it out there, you know? Things are bound to get better, they say.

A bit late for the season, but a wonderful song, nonetheless. I, unfortunately, am unable to do my usual uploading because my PC is dead and the OS on this mac is too old to support my IPod (sad, yeah, it's even 10.1). I'll try to do so in the future if I get the chance.

( Xmas Cake )

Stupid boy.

Unrequited love really fucking sucks. You may laugh, but I am never falling in love again.

And suddenly, everything is all that much brighter.